No Turning Back

I can't even begin to say how exhausted I am. I was up the entire night last night. Okay, I MAYBE got 1-2 hours of sleep sometime between 2-4. Peter left at 5 a.m. with his dad and our friend Sean to drive the UHaul and our Landcruiser down to Long Beach, plus a 3rd vehicle to drive the other two guys home in (since the UHaul and the Landcruiser stayed down there). After arriving down in Long Beach around 11ish today, they spent 2 hours packing up our 2o' shipping container which waited on the trailer of a flatbed truck. I guess after they were done that container was taken and lifted onto the ship it will travel to Hawaii on. Our Landcruiser was then processed somewhere else and taken in for shipping. Which, of all things, that makes me the most sad right now. I miss my car. I got parts of it repainted and the whole thing buffed out a day before it left town, and I want to drive around in my shiny car! Instead it's sitting down at some dingy port waiting to begin it's ocean voyage all alone. Ha!

Anyway, today was a long day since Peter wasn't here to help with the boys and I was beyond tired. It really wasn't terrible, just long. Peter's mom and I ordered take-out from 3 different places for dinner tonight, ha ha! Neither of us felt like going to the store OR cooking for the clan, so we all ordered what we felt like eating and I ran around and picked it up. Good thing we live in a small town!

I should be asleep right now, but probably in 30-45 minutes Peter and his dad will arrive. I don't think I could fall asleep if I wanted to. The winds are crazy right now and I can't help but be a bit worried about them, especially knowing how exhausted they are and that they're at the tail end of a 19-hour traveling/moving day. None of those guys do well driving at night when they're tired. Hopefully they'll keep each other awake.

So yeah, our stuff is gone. I'll see it on the other side soon, as in about 25 days. I cried a bit after I heard Peter drive off in the UHaul early this morning and Peter's mom was crying today. The fact that our things and our car has gone on ahead of us means wow, we are really doing this and we have officially committed to the point of no turning back. This is the real deal.

I continue to grieve with Alex. I just so badly want to get that kid to Hawaii and show him how amazing it is and how much he's going to love it and all the new friends he's going to make. I want him to see that it really is going to be okay. Yesterday he was saying he wouldn't move there, he'd only visit. That's all I can ask of him right now. :) Geez, we moved here the day he turned 4 months old, this is the only way of life he knows. And he's very attached to that life and the people in it! He's such a sweetie. I hope the excitement over going on the airplane supersedes his sadness over leaving when the big day arrives. I just can't bear to see his little heart broken!

Well, as I always try to end on a lighter more positive note, I must say I am relieved to be done packing and having to figure out what is going to Hawaii and what isn't. I'm done. Oh, and we also don't have to think about all the shipping details either. Now we just follow the tracking info and watch for when it lands. I have a few things to sell on Ebay and everything else is going in our suitcases and going with us. So, work-wise, the hard part really is over. Now we have a little over three weeks of holidays and good-byes. I fear these last days may be the most difficult of all, even after months of planning and packing. No way around that.

I do have to say I am thankful for how the timing of everything has come together. We have been able to do this whole moving deal without having to work around snow and freezing temps. Now tonight, as the guys arrive back home having completed the moving mission, a storm is blowing in with REALLY COLD weather and, prayerfully, lots of snow!

Yeah, they're here!!!!